20th September 2018 – Sometimes the reason to be grateful nocks on your nose immediately in the morning, like yesterday. There are however days like today, when nothing seems to make any sense, even though the reason to be thankful is staring at you the whole day.
I didn’t wake up with the greatest mood today and, as the day continued, it wasn’t getting any better. I needed a new pair of jeans and therefore there wasn’t any chance to avoid a shopping mall as we went to get them. I don’t know why but from a certain moment I don’t feel quite well on such places. Everything seems so fake and dishonest there, people, the shops, the goods, even myself! To cut a long story shorter, I was getting more and more irritated. In that moment, it didn’t matter to me that it was wonderful sunny and late summer weather outside or that we took it back home through my favorite way..
It was late in the evening, after I started texting with one of my friends about school which is about to start in a week and about a registration of our classes, when I realized I’m thriving with life and I truly cannot wait the beginning of the semester. On a scale from zero to one hundred, I was excited on one hundred and fifty!
That means I succeeded today as well as yesterday, even though it took me almost the whole day to find out. Today I am thankful for being able to study the one study program that feels like it was created right for me. I am so much grateful that I found out two years back that the social and cultural ecology as a program exists and – what was even more exciting – I was able to study it on my beloved alma mater. I am also very proud of myself (which isn’t always very easy) of having finished the first year without a single flaw and finding eventually a glimpse of purpose in my life.
With that said, I can finally go to bed and hope this little confession will inspire you as well. Inspire you to what? Not being so harsh to yourself and always remembering that no matter how meaningless life can sometimes feel, at the end of the day or the day after that, you will always see a glimpse of hope.
Wicked and Clever